Human has limits, We can only break them with GOD.

random thoughts- CNY day 2

I had MOAR SUGARR this morning.

If ya know wad i meant...

Im expectin my dad's friend to visit anytime by now

They're Malays and Im glad.

coz we are one of the very few Chinese families who doesnt cook pork or buy them.

Yea, my mum hates pork A LOT.

I sure hope they'll enjoy the cakes and cookies made by ourselves

and say smth good.

After all, Malays are always great with pastry, especially the LEGENDARY kek lapis!

The dogs arent a big issue since I will keep them in my room.

My dad promised to bring us out visiting after serving our guests.

I really want to go but again, CAR's an issue.

Id rather follow my mum's car if tats the case.

Actually I hate going altogether.

I like it better if it were just 2 , 3 of us.

Oh crap, I think i have to clean the floor again.

-The earnest housekeeper.

First day of Chinese New Year

It was a long 3 hour trip to Engkilili

but this time it felt fast

coz I WAS WITH AUNT's family!

my family abandoned me...

OH SILLY,OF COZ NO!

my car didnt have enough seat so I volunteered to join Aunt's car

How kind of me...

duh, I actually just hated fighting with my brothers and father in the car

They can be SUPER ANNOYING

This year not many family members returned

but it was ok

i helped out at the kitchen

and was being yelled by mum

dont ask me why

she just likes yelling at me

Sadistic enough?

She also likes me yelling at her

At least she's not a persistent as my dad, whom he prefer to describe as PERSEVERE

Im like WTF! TMD like dat oso can

He;s the type who cant read your signal when u obviously say

"DUN COME NEAR OR TALK TO ME"

Guess im a bit like both huh?

Wants attention but Hate it at the same time

On my way back, I tagged along Aunty and her in law to visit her In-Laws!

$$EXTRA ANGPAUS$$

who wouldnt be happy?

I was expecting it but i got it

This is why I like CNY

even if it's fake (OR NOT)courtesy,

at least ppl r sincere to give money away.

and that's the spirit of giving

Chinese New Year is so near

and Im still cleaning my house.

yea, we're pretty much last minute.

and man, do I smell like shit now?

Yea, srsly smell like longkang now.

I lashed out again.

SHIT

im being such a mad dog.

my mom's my victim again

but im glad it was her

coz we understand each other

and I know she'll lash out at me again one day

and Im sure I wont mind

BUT im also sure at some point we will be sick of each other's crazyness

like what happens once in a while

Hey, nothing's perfect okay?

I hope my soulmate or whosoever God's preparing for me is as understanding and tolerable as my mum.

coz im a hell lots of madness, insaneness, emoness and weakness that ANYONE can handle.

Sometimes I even wonder why God is still holding onto me, never giving up on me.

I know Im not DOWN now, but I just wan to remind whosoever is down out there,

that God will give you someone who understands you.

Don't worry

It could be a dog,

it could be a guy,

it could be a friend,

it could be an idol (I SURE HOPE YEA)

it could be , anything that makes you loved and love others.

Have a great CNY ppl!

When you are angry, do not sin

Tats wad the Lord said.

did you know?

It's so hard to follow

at many times I failed

miserably...

today I guess I suceeded

but instead

I took all the shit inside mysELF

and it doesnt' feels good

it makes me feel like im a piece of shit

no worth

no value

then all the negative thoughts came

what was i doing

what am i even living for

if i hav no worth

i should throw my anger at someone

yea

or else im being eaten slowly by the devil from the inside

but then my heart ache

till one of my palm

and I was reminded of Jesus

how he suffered for us

I realised

the pain inside is not for the devil

but for God

If I can't even handle this little pain,

how am I supposed to follow Jesus's footsteps?

Then things got clearer

I hav worth and value.

tats y I feel pain

being degraded, accused

Like any other human,

Im born to love not to hate.

Steins ; Gate

Its my first Seinen anime so I wasn't used to it at first

The OP sucks badly

and first few episodes seems lack of direction

not to mention how confusing the first ep was

talking about first impressions...

But I was glad I din give up

coz it became so interesting, tense, emotional, complicated and overwhelming that I couldn't stop watching it

Again and again it din fail to amaze me.

Everything felt so real that I started questioning myself.

What if those dreams, fragmented memories are reality but in another world line?

Maybe those de ja vu moments ppl hav is due to this

The feeling that irritates u but u just dunno why and how

Shift in world line?

I wonder...

If this anime has the same level of character design and music quality as Code Geass,

I would say this is better

Not because of the happy ending

but how authentic it is

It has few fan service too

but not as much as the latter

It feels less exaggerated and the dialogues are close to what real life ppl would say

(except for Okarin)

I really hope that the creator would produce more works!

Yakitate!! Japan

u'll miss out a lot NOT watching this

Breads that can send ppl to heaven, universe and even CHANGE HISTORY

not to forget learning about interesting facts and nutritional values regarding ingredients which most of it YOU DUN EVEN KNOW!

as expected from a Shonen manga winner!

It is truly inspring and filled with unexpected turns of events!

I don use the word TWIST here coz it may sound more serious, smth like Code Geass

it can be very funny sometimes

yet a real tear jerker at other times

The breads and challenges are epicly planned and so is their characters!

they are fantastic

ESPECIALLY Pierrot Bolneze!!!!!

Got TO Love him!

U'll also find quirky and persistent villains like the Kaysers (three weird France brothers)

I had the same reaction as ppl in the anime when they revealed the coat that covered them

and WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT

Samurai Boy would have fallen in love with Miss America and NOT FREAKING CARE THAT HE LOSED?!

The best part is, the normal, plain looking main character-Azuma Kazuma.

the person who invented Japan! (japanese punya PAN which means bread)

most of the time you would make a trollface while watching this,

but I promise you

It is going to be a great adventure.

HIBIKI TOUYA

PLS COSPLAY AS SHIRAHANE SAN AND BE MINE!

!!!MUAHAHAHA!!!!

The danger of having nothing to do

When I have nothing to do

I feel like doing smth bad.

which can be very troublesome for ppl who know me.

I will annoy everyone I see

online and offline

I feel like bashing ppl

or else gossiping

WHICH IS WHAT IM NOT SUPPOSED TO DO

then I will say things to ppl without thinking

I do things completely out of impulse, ego and superiority

The complete opposite of docile, humble and rational.

I guess in a way that makes me miserable for a while.

Only God knows how boredom and frustration of staying at home can kill me as a good person

and turn me into a total bitch that goes around hurting ppl.

What am I if not introvert yet extrovert?

It's kind of good.

Means I can handle one but prefer the other, and can be switched like vice versa.

Flexibility I assume?

Tried to draw but nth good came out of it.

just sketched a girl with rough, messy hair, wearing an armor, laying one hand on her sword and another trying to let go of a chained hand of WHO KNOWS WHO IS IT?!

i sense pretty heavy influence from Saber here...

Dear boredom, whatever u do, do not lure me into slandering @ talking bad about ppl.

FML =="

The Girl and the Scumbag

Recently there's been news about a girl who's MIA after the flood incident at my hometown.

and here comes this guy on FB expressing his frustration about how stupid postson praying for her survival is, how futile and etc.

He went too far by joking about how stupid she was and you know wat happened nex...

There's an anti-scumbag page for him!

I dunno what to say actually

but I feel that he is SUCH a miserable person.

don't you agree?

He's SO MISERABLE that he can't stand ppl praying.

not believing in prayers in one thing, bashing at ppl praying is another thing.

yea, he's an atheist.

it gives u the right to comment about other religions and why you don't like them

but not rejoicing in ppl's death!

What more to say when it's just a girl u DUN EVEN KNOW?!

okay, maybe he knew her, maybe she dumped him. I DUNNO

but I do know for sure that he's so miserable I dont wanna curse him.

he's like appearing on the right time to distract ppl's prayer

he's not the devil

it's more like the devil is pulling some strings.

so that ppl would hate him instead of focusing on hoping for the girl's survival.

quite unbelievable rite?

but this is what I believe.

If this happened few years ago, i might have go "yea, fuck that bastard, die! die!"

but this is now, I seriously don't want or at least try not to curse other ppl

coz everyone is God's child.

It's already inevitable that we will dislike some ppl,

think they're not cool,

not worthy of our respect and stuffs,

so why make things worst?

Don't tend to hate ppl when they disgust you, Don't tend to please everyone when they do not accept you.

This is my resolution for life.

:3

Correction: Her body is found. Pls rest in peace. Give her family strength pls My Lord.